I did something daring. I auditioned for my dream role and dream job. Auditioning for this particular company is something I’ve wanted to do for as long as I can remember, and when the opportunity arose, it seemed so right for me. It felt like the perfect situation placed in my life at the perfect moment. I cannot tell you just how overjoyed and excited I was to audition, and felt that all the let downs I’d received in the past had led me to this. The audition went extremely well, I got a callback, and they expressed a lot of interest in me. I was feeling so confident and happy and hopeful and…. nothing. I didn’t hear anything back from them after that point. I’m not going to lie, the lack of news really hurt. A lot. I was feeling inadequate, and every time I would put myself out there, there would be another let down. I felt angry and confused, part of me wishing I’d just not auditioned. Then, I had an attitude check. Even though the outcome was not what I had hoped, I realized just how lucky I was that I had the opportunity to audition, and that I was able to learn so much in the process.
I’ve learned that the Lord’s timing may not always be our ideal timing, but He knows what we need even when we do not. We just have to trust in Him, know He loves us and is looking out for us. There is a quote I absolutely love from Elder Jeffery R. Holland’s talk “This, the Greatest of All Dispensations” that says, “God expects you to have enough faith, determination, and trust in Him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing. He expects you not simply to face the future; He expects you to embrace and shape the future—to love it, rejoice in it, and delight in your opportunities.” I’ve had my share of successes, and I’ve had my share of failures, as we all have. Taking what we’ve learned from those experiences and using them to shape our future in a positive way is how we move on from the bad, and realize the good that can come from it. It’s like the old saying, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”